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back from bangkok

sawadeekaaaaaaaaaaaaa i am back. back from the land of the smelly air. hohoho.

it was pretty fun. not bad. we shopped so much. i don't think the amt of time i've shopped for the whole of this yr (which frankly ain't much) can equal that of what we shopped there. our hotel was connected to mbk so uh, yeah. ahha. mbk rocks. i could finally buy stuff. usually i go window shopping. like "hey i like that", -looks at price tag, "oops", -walks to next shop.kind of thing. here it was more possible to buy stuff. though all of them were immitations, they were very skilfully imitated! "made in germany". i love the fact that the labels were copies as well. mwahha. splendid. although it's inevitable to doubt the quality, but who cares right? it's so cheap! let me type out a typical buyers experience, i've experienced this over and over so many times that it's almost like a scripted play now.

me: -points at item and oohs. [to shopkeeper] how much?
shopkeeper: one nai naiii (199 baht = about S$9-10)
me: [to pam] do you think it's nice? can fit anot?
pam: [to shopkeeper] can try? -points to item and does a "can i try this on" gesture
shopkeeper: -nods reluctantly
me: -tries on item. [to shopkeeper] got mirror? -tries to sign language "do you have a mirror?"
shopkeeper: -pulls out mirror and places it infront of me. vely naii!! (the item looks very nice on you)
me: -gasps at the fatness of my reflection. oh my gosh i look so fat! ahh!
shopkeeper: you no fat! you no fat! vely naiiii! (you don't look a tad fat, you look very nice in this outfit)

**this is when the conversation can either go one way or another.

#1
me: aiyah i look to fat, forget it. -passes item back to shopkeeper
shopkeeper: -scowls and puts on a face that is so black it looks like charcoal. pouts momentarily till you walk away.

#2
me: [to pam] okay i'm going to lose weight anyway, i think i'll buy it first. [to shopkeeper] can discount?
shopkeeper: no dis-cow! no dis-cow! (no way am i going to give you a discount you toot)
me: cheaper! cheaper!
shopkeeper: no dis-cow! -puts on a black face.
me: -coughs money out and runs out of shop.

that went on in practically every shop we went to. hahaha. plus the prices were always "one nai nai" (199 baht) . really! ahha unless you chose this super ex looking item. other than that, shirts, bags, shoes, belts..everything was 199! i figured it sortof balanced off after a while. you see a shirt going at 199 is ex, but a pair of shoes going at 199 is cheap. so if you buy both, it sort of evens out? if you get what i mean. yup.

uh other than that, it was buffet-ing morning noon and night. desperate attempts to lose weight grew futile by day 3. i have grown into a blob of fat. but do not fear! pat's weight loss plan is here! want to know what it is? don't tell you. secret. HAHAHA. sigh i need to lose a lot of this extra weight weighing me down. at least before sch reopens. i cannot face the world with my very fat face now. NO MORE EATING OUT! if they bring me out i am bringing my sudoku book to battle the evil temptations of eating. sudoku keeps me occupied.

yes i bought a S$6 sudoku book. just to entertain myself, and convince myself that my brain was still alive. after doing 3 puzzles i was counting "1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9" in my sleep. ahahha. very amusing. i figured since it's the latest craze i'd be losing out if i didn't give it a go (aka typical singaporean kiasuism)

what else. uh we visted lotsa cool places. the gym there was fabulous. the pool was cool. the track was like and old shack. the food was salty. very salty. even the water was salty.

boo. oh and the drinks there got me high. non-alcoholic mind you. just juice and mineral water. you'll see me laughing my head off. hahahah.

I AM SO GLAD I'M BACK. i think? okay cept that now there's a lot of work waiting to be done. but at least now i can focus on losing all this weight. i heard that guojiaolian ain't back yet. WHERE ARE YOU?! he's been gone for so long. haha. i need his trng progs to get all this shit to burn up. uh plus, his shouting is motivating. i am hoping that training is not boring shit (still). cos if it is i am going to ... i don't know what.

haha. okay i have a phrase of the month. taken from the latest harrypotter movie. it is my favourite phrase from the movie.

"CHINESE FIREBALL. OOOOOOOOH!"

hahah. go guess where that was from. if you can't rmb then too bad. ahhaha but if you hear me reciting that next yr in sch, you'll know why.

"CHINESE FIREBALL. OOOOOOOOH!"

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

it's the passion that drives you